Don’t ask why I named it that. Lol, I had to name it something. And I know it has been forever since I wrote a post for everyone. I’m still living with my dad and stepmom. Although I sometimes feel like I want to go live with my mom and other dad . I miss being there alot!!! Not even kidding. But living her isnt so bad. I’ve got alot of friends. Close friends. They even said that if i were to kill myself they would do it too.. I told them whatever I do, they shouldn’y do it too. I’m going back to my moms on March 30th t April 6th, just for spring break though. I might go back in the summer but then again I might be going out to Port Stanley, Ontario. Hopefully I can. Lots of friends out there. And it is a really nice place. Yeah if I do, I’m going to be so happy. Anyways, umm I’ve got a girlfriend. Yes, I am not afraid to say that I’m bisexual. If anyone has a problem with that.. Well, like what the hell?! You shouldn’t have a problem with people being bisexual or gay or lesbian. And yes I love this girl alot. She is my life. Her name is Taylor. She is nice, sweet, smart, beautiful and just everything I ever wanted. =] <3
I don’t know what I would do if me and her weren’t together. I love her so much, more than words can say. It’s like oh my god. She makes me so happy. Ever since me and her first started talking and stuff, I’ve just been so muh more happier. And thats real big considering I’m diagnosed with depression. I’ve been depressed for months. And just talking to her makes me smile and feel so happy and all that stuff, its just so unbelievable! But yet sooo true!!!
Well I gotta go. Can’t write much more tonight. I’ll try to keep everyone a lil more updated on life with my new family.
Mucchhh Loveee
–Jolene <3 =]
All I ever wanted =] March 26, 2009
New Life January 25, 2009
hey,
i know i havent posted something in a real long time, so i thought i would write everyone a lil post saying hi.
I’ve got a new life, but it is so much harder than i thought. living in winnipeg isnt really the greatest thing with the violence and all that stuff… But i do manage to ignore all those facts. I happen to have changed alot since i moved and went into foster care, but thats what makes me who i am, right? I have to see a person, there like a student concillor but the other person. haha i can never remember the name of it, but yeah i have to see that person now. Half the time i cant focuse on my work in class too because im to busy thinking about what im doing with my life, if you get what i mean by that? I dont know what to do with my life once again so of course i did cut myself once again and i really dont care if people know that i did that.. Well im going to talk about something else now. When i first came here i met my cousins (Zach and James) they are pretty cool but James happens to lose his temper real fast sometimes, but one day they actually called me and asked me if i wanted to come outside with them, so i said sure. I met Ashley and Macey. I am now really good friends with Macey, well she is kinda my wife and sorta like a sister to m now. She is more like family to me then my own real dad sadly. But thats only becaue i talk to Macey more than my dad, and i hang out with her alot. Her mom keeps kicking her out, so when her mom does she either comes to me or to Matt (our husband:D) lol. Me and Matt are there for her for example, last night i went with Macey because she was going to talk to her mom about her mom kicking her out. When we got there her mom told me to get out (no shock) and said Macey was grounded. I told Macey i will be outside waiting for her to come back out. I heard alot of yelling, then it went silent. i got worried so i knocked on the door and Macey ws on the floor crying. so i got really worried and ran back to the youth called Matt, he came to get me. Then we went down to Macey’s house and we tried to get out of the house.
Matt: We are not leaving until Macey is in the car!
Macey’s mom: F*** Off!!! She’s not going!!
Me: Oh my god lady!! She isnt safe with you!! You always beat her. And your the reason why shes crying!
Macey’s mom: Shes crying on her own!
Matt: She doesnt just cry for no reason!
Macey’s mom: Well i didnt do it!
Me: When i came here with her she wasnt crying! And now she is crying after you “talking” to her!
Macey’ mom: Go away!!!
Matt: I told you, we arent leaving until Macey is in that car! She isnt safe with you!
Macey’s mom *opens the door*: Go away!! Excuse me people over there can you call the police, these kids are harrassing me!
Matt: we arent harrassing you!
Macey’s mom *pushes Matt down the steps!* : LEAVE!!
Me: WE ARENT LEAVING UNTIL WE GET MACEY!
Matt: Just let her go!
Macey’s mom: I will call the police on you two
Matt: Go ahead, with what phone?!?!!
then like awhile later, me and Matt were sitting in the car. so we called the police for them to take Macey out of her house. and all that. but that is over and done with.
Well my life has taken an interesting twist since october when i first went into care. but it’s old now. it feels weird living in winnipeg when your so used to living in small places. well im gunna stop this post here.
ttyl
byee(F) xx
Kristina (aka Jolene)
Maddi November 27, 2008
Maddi is my bestest friend ever!!! i hang out with her almost every day. except me being sick this weekend messed it up!! GRRRRRR. lol. We always have the best of times together. like:
Maddi: What would you do if i asked that man if he had a wedgie?
Me: i’d be like ‘uhh, i dont know you..’ or fall to the ground laughing.
Or
Maddi: Jolene, Who do you love?
Me: Your Mom!!!
Maddi: hahahahaha really?
Me: no. hahaha
*Maddi starts to laugh*
But these days are different now, since i moved to winnipeg and she’s still in the pas. i miss her so much. She is like my bestest friend. Right now for me its hard knowing my best friend is 8 or 9 hours away from me and i cant even see her when i was so used to seeing her everyday.
Lifee November 20, 2008
Well, im moving to Winnipeg on Saturday at 1 p.m. on a plane. Today is my last day of school, so i have to see ALL my friends today or else i will cry!!! Hahaha, i know i may be dramatic but its me, its the way i like to be haha. Sorry im just like really really happy!! I cant wait until I go to Winnipeg!! 
Neww November 19, 2008
Heyy;
I’m doing fine. I was having fun but then i got put into a new foster home and next week i am moving to Winnipeg, Manitoba. Which kinda sucks because then i have to leave all my friends again. I’m so scared of going. But oh well i just have to deal with it. another move wont hurt. This is what i get for going into foster Care. oh well its life. i guess. And right now i live with a girl name Taylor and she is like flirting with all my guy friends. (she says only the hot ones) haha. but i dont know what to write now so, yeah. byee
-Jolene =]
Heyy October 29, 2008
Hello,
I dont think i said that was my last post. i will write on here sometimes but i do have school and some friends to go hang out with. Today was the best though. Some of my old friends go to the same school as me and some new friends go to the same school too. It’s great!! But i do wish i was back at J.H.K. it was a great place but this is a good place too. i guess. I cant wait for the S.L. VB team to come and face T.P. VB team so i could see some people on those teams and stuff. So yeah. (by the way S.L. means Snow Lake and T.P. means The Pas and VB is volley ball. so yeah) Sorry i tend to say ’so yeah’ alot. I miss Snow Lake and i miss the class (most of the class anyways). My foster moms name is Shayleen and my foster dads name is Angus. They arent much older than me, Shay is 8 years older and Angus is 12 years older. So i think that isnt that bad. And i have two others kids here to but they are theres, Lenny and Abby. Abby crys alot, she is almost crying all the time over small things like, toys or something. i got a headache from all the crying. Last night when Angus was talking to me, i was hoping he only asked questions with a yes or no answer so i could just use my head because i couldnt talk, my voice was so quite and cracky. Im not in school here yet but i will be soon maybe Wednesday or Thursday. Yeah we had to get CFS to fill out my papers from the Kelsey Division office and Shay has to fill out the papers right from Scott Bateman Middle School. I’m going to the same school as Haley, Willy, Alexis, and some of my other friends that have lived here for along time, i will write something else later.
Byee
-Jolene =]
Sorry October 26, 2008
Sorry i havent been writing alot of things on my blog. It’s just i have been having alot of things going on and i cant focus on my work in class or at home. So that brings me to failing possibly. And things that are happening at home its sort of getting hard, i mean i got the wrong message from my mom this morning, like i thought she was saying she was going to put me in foster care. But im only thinking upon the way she said it, like i mean this isn’t my first time hearing about foster care. I have came to the point were i was only 5 days away from going. But thats old news now. Like i have a hard time with my family and friends and in a way its sort of effecting my school work. I know what it feels like to not have your friends by your side, because i used to be called ‘Emo‘ because i used to be all depressed. So apparently NOBODY wanted to hang around me, because apparently everyone was afraid to say something to me that would hurt me and end up making me more depressed but the truth is i never really was depressed. I really hate when people normally always judge before they really actually know the truth. And yeah i dont mind if the whole world knows about this about me. People already talk about me so the whole world can go right ahead and talk about me. I mean i hear and see people talk about me and some people do it right in my face. Something from gym class awhile ago but i never really said anything about it so yeah. It doesnt bother me anymore because i learned to live with it. All they there doing is trying to bring me down so they can make themselves feel better.
Date: October 25th
By the way this might be my last post too because im in a foster home now!! yes i am sad that i had to leave but yet im happy too.. (DONT ASK) so i will MAYBE write things on here to let everyone know things and how my life is going as a foster child. but some people dont believe me!! BUT I SERIOUSLY AM!!!!!!
Byee
-Jolene =]
Why do…? October 8, 2008
Why do people commit suicide?
Why do people cut themselves?
Why do girls become anerexic and belimec?
Why do kids bring guns to school?
Why do kids get depressed, so they start using meds and abusing themselves?
Why do girls feel the need to act inapproprite to impress guys?
In the bill of rights, it says we have freedom of speech!!
So why are we so afraid to speak up for ourselves?
I KNOW WHY!!
Cliques
*Gansters*
*Preps*
*Nerds*
*Goth*
*Emos*
*Punks*
***And thats not even half them..
Society in general..
We live in a world where if your not skinny, not beautiful, not sexy, not straight.
Your tortered, abused, and humiliated.
We say we are all equal but, there is still racism, sexism.
And people judging others based on there religion, color, size, heritage, ect.
Is this America? or Canada? Or the U.K.? Or any other nation?
Is this the nations we live in and fight wars to support?
I am sick of it!
Stereotypes, and everything else.
I want to live in a good place!
Without suicide, rape, murder, and JUDGEMENT!
What about you?
Speak your mind. Dont let anything go!
If you do, what are you really doing for youself, for everyone else?
Tell me what you think.
Non-Digital photo frame that looks Digital?! October 4, 2008
There is a new non-digital photo frame that happens to look digital. I believe that isn’t the greatest thing ever. I mean like we have seen plenty (or too many) digital photo frames trying to look like old analog photo frames. But this is something new. I don’t think anyone has ever saw a non-digital photo frame made like its supposed to look like digital photo frame. Personally i think that is a little bit odd if you ask someone who is used non-digital frames looking like … Well normal, and digital frames looking like themselves. But never ever a non-digital photo frame looking digital. This is the first analog photo frame probably anyone has ever seen that masquerades as a digital photo frame.
It looks sort of like a window you might see on your computer? Well yes, there’s no SD cart slot, no USB port, no power cord or no flash slideshow that pumps out music and video, its just like other photo frames. More towards the plan type of photo frame. It doesn’t look to bad. It’s pretty good for a non-digital photo frame trying to look like a digital photo frame.
School October 3, 2008
Today at school there is only 8 people here because everyone else is gone to a volley ball thing. So today we will… I don’t really know what we are going to do. Probably a normal day. I wish we could sleep. ha ha. Sleeping would be better than doing work. Well i have to go write about something else now. Most likely the igoogle post.
