There are some things in life you can’t take back no matter how hard you try. I’ve messed up so many times. I don’t now what do to anymore. What I do know is I want to be in Winnipeg. From the start I didn’t even want to move to move to Winnipeg because I knew if I made enough friends, I would get attached, and that I would just become one of those like spoiled bratty kids.  Well for me that’s pretty much what happened. I made so many good friends. I miss them dearly now. Every now and then I cry. I cry because i think of all the good times I’ve had. Sometimes when I’m sitting in class and I will think about it. I want to just sit there and cry but I hold back the tears. Everyone I met is good to me and then me the world to me now. It gets so hard for me I know I’m young, and I’m already thinking about leaving my mom soon. I just need to find somewhere to live. My friend Jason is getting his own place and he offered me a place to live since I am trying to find  somewhere. My friend Matt also told me and my sister Natalie we could spend a few days at his place. Those two guys are really good friends to me. I wish I was in Winnipeg right now. I really don’t want to be with my mom. She pisses me off a lot. And we don’t really get along to well. Living with her tends to get really hard and I can’t handle it. So that’s where the whole cutting thing comes in. I wish I didn’t even have to leave Winnipeg. Everything is just to complicated and I can’t deal with it all. There isn’t much I can do but take all the drama she gives me. My friend Natalie is always there for me. She is a really good friend and the only person that is around. She means a lot to me. I don’t know what life would be like if I didn’t even meet her. This life is so confusing but I think I will live in the end. Hopefully. Suicide has come to mind many times already but I manage to just stay away from that stuff. But that’s all I had to say. Just felt like putting it out there.
Byyyeezz

Much Love
-Skittle Biitt ‘zz
Jolene